Monday, June 13, 2011

How I Miss Her

How I Miss Her

It's been five years since you have gone to work in America
We have to sacrifice for the future of the kids
In those five long years so many things have happened
in my life
I almost died two years ago because of severe scoliosis
in my lower back
Our house was swept by rampaging flash flood
destroying most of our belongings
I have to be the father and mother of the kids and watch
them grow to young adulthood
But in all those years I missed you terribly
When I was drowning in trials and problems
how I wished you were with me in those difficult times
I found myself calling your name at night, missing
you so much and I would cry myself to sleep
I may never see you again as I feel the pangs of death
hanging over my head
Whatever life has in store for us, just remember that I have
always love you and has always been faithful to you
As I constantly listen to your favorite song you used to sing
I can't help but cry because of the loneliness gnawing deep inside
I will never love again as much as I have loved you
That I promise you

Promise Me - Beverley Craven


Clarissa said...

How sad...I could feel your emptiness and loneliness because of the absence of your wife..but remember that she feels the same way too..

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Hi Clarissa,
Yes, that maybe the case. Next year she will be getting our two youngest kids to continue their studies in America. Then she will be away again. I have learned to deal with my loneliness by the grace of God. Thanks for your visit and comments. God bless you all always.

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Hi Shiera,
I'm sorry, I inadvertently erased your comment. I thought it was an anonymous one. Anyway, I reprinted it here from your email.

Shiera has left a new comment on your post "How I Miss Her":

I've seen what my parents have to go through with our future in mind...
May God bless you and your family always.

Happy Father's Day!

Thank for your visit and comments. God bless you always.

tejan said...

Oh... ajah Mel..she feels the same I know! I know your situation is not taht easy..but God is great..just trust him and everything will be fine! Godbless!

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Hi teJan,
It's those moments when I missed her so much that I feel this way, otherwise I am already used to our long distance separation. God has been so good to me and has filled my heart with joy and peace. Thanks for your visit and comments. God bless you all always.

☆Mama Ko☆ said...

Sumasakit dibdib ko sa post mo Sir Mel, I feel your longing and pain inside, yan ang hirap kasi you have to choose other than you own because your kids happiness is your happiness even if you give up your own happiness. You are a very selfless person kahit nasasaktan ka. Tapos you accepted everything without bitterness, Grabe ang pagsubuk na nararanasan at dinaranas mo sa kasalukuyan. I know your wife loves you and she also sacrifice her own happiness para lang sa mga anak ninyo. Hindi lahat ng tao makakagawa sa mga sacrifices na ginawa mo. I hope your love with each other will bring you both in each others arms one day. Will pray for you and your family my friend. Sana may miracle na atleast makauwi or makapagbyahe ka mn lang at makapiling uli ang mahal mo sa buhay. Thanks for sharing a piece of your personal life.

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Hi Shy,
Parang nasilip mo yung nilalaman nang puso ko. Very sensitive person ka rin kaya nakapagre relate ka sa kalagayan ko. Talagang hindi ko na iniisip ang sarili ko kundi lahat ay para sa Diyos at pamilya ko na lang. Thanks for your visit and comments. God bless you all always.

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